Delwynn Lee

No More

I can’t afford to be the self-pitying, pessimistic and worse-case scenario assuming guy I once was.

She’s sick of me doing this.

I Am Not Naive

There is a marked difference between naivety and a determination in achieving my goals. Yes, I do understand where I stand, of particular the challenges ahead. But don’t call me naive. I am blind in my pursuit for I gaze myself in upmost glory and confidence.

Some may label me as near insanity rather than naive. That, is a better term to my ears. I don’t mind being included in the privileged class of insanity, so long as nothing is taken away from me.

And you, my friend, are so naive that it makes me feel sick sometimes.

Excerpts From My Diary

Entited “Taking Things For Granted” - a pretty self-explanatory title

We often forget to work hard when we are in abundance of comfort and come to regret it only later. I was allowed the privileged opportunity to spend over a year in Taiwan for my National Service, earning a salary of $1700 per month and spending short hours working at the same time.

Instead of wisely saving my money and making full use of my free time, I squandered both resources away with hardly a blink of an eye. I am particularly disgusted that I previously thought of spending lavishly as a form of pride and character. I am paying the price now.

Part of the reason why I tend to waste good things away is because I always thought the future to be easy. I thought what hard work I had put in during junior college would last me throughout my life. I was wrong. Life is never easy and in good times, we must always prepare for the storms that will come one day. I now feel the importance of investing in my future.

People often lack the foresight to see the difficulties that lie ahead in life. We fail to plan for the future because it feels like a chore to do so. We, in the back of our mind, would rather regret and deal with problems when they popped up.

Sadly, we are not all main characters in any fairy tale. Some problems can prove to be either irreversible or fatal in the end. A good example is the failure to take care of your health, which might result in some illnesses medical advances are not yet able to solve immediately.

I am not to say we should be over-paranoid and pessimistic about the future. This would obviously tire ourselves out and leave our mental state in a disarray. We must accept that there will be things we will definitely lose and there will be many problems that will force you to adopt a compromise on things.

Yet, we should not give up on life. This is not correct.

Suffice to say, we must list the things we are thankful about. We must be optimistic if we are to fully appreciate what we already have, which can be viewed as rewards for all our previous hard work. We must also view opportunities as gifts, and this would be a powerful strength if we can simultaneously make lemonade out of lemons.

If we are in a bad shape, fight to get better because your life truly depends on it. And you would put to shame past rewards and hard work if you give up today.

If we are in a good shape, fight also because of the rainy days ahead. And because you own life a good show of making good in bad times.

As for me, I will fight and keep fighting, if not for myself, then it’s for the woman I love.

Difficulties in Life

Hurdles should be of some benefit, shouldn’t they?